well im too pumped katies has to get that thing out of her because im done with the baby kicking stage i wanna hold it :)
im not to sure what i want i guess as long as its healthy.
im kinda pushing to a girl more tho just becuase it would be nice to have daddys litle girl and i can enjoy life till the teenage years.
but a boy that would be bad ass.
any body got any guesses lol every one thinks it will be a girl tho lol.

boo has already said that she will babysit for katies prom so this year we can get drunk and actually enjoy the thing. oh and getting back to actually enjoying danny katie time in a few months should be nice. but that will be rare still but ehhhh.


well i should go people should write on here more oftenlol

mhmmmm.....
so i was really sick for a week with a nasty flue and i missed alot of work.
me and katie have had to adjust with the lesser hours but eh i guess that not so rough. i havnt really talked to anyone latly kinda wanna no bout their lives but no one seems to write on this site much anymore so lol.
um what eles kates due in 2 weeks very exited about that i get a baby girl or boy soon.
also working at timmies you see people alot its messed when you see people after a hard time and complet akwardness.
well you do miss people but youknow that every thing is over and done with and every one has now done somthing eles does anyone eles ever wonder whats going on ...
wow this is a pointless journal


well im happy with evey thing work sucks but it pays my bill me and katie are good. fight like most couples but we work it out and well we got alot of shit from her shower some cute shit.
well this was pointless gonna go on facebook now or game....

well today
katie got her ultra sound finaly, the baby is good from what she saw witch is a load off... stupid fucking doctor waiting this long.  cince the baby was so big tho we didnt get the best picture in the world but we can see the hands and the head.  also her due date changed thank god... so now it is december the 7th so that puts katie up at 33 weeks yeahhhhhh.  Also their is only one in side so thats good happy bout that i guess.  also we found out the babies weight and so far it is just under 5 pounds so were hopen for a big one.... well im hoping for a big one katie i think is dreading it all but im happy its awesome i keep looking at the little picture its so cool.  the baby room is starting to come along soon and the baby shower is just around the corner so every thing is going good.  also work as been good i kinda got nastyt with the other baker so i should talk to my boss about that so i dont get in trouble... the bitch was pissing me off and always does shes not very liked at timmies.  what eles um been gamming alot of fable 2 it keeps me sane lol..... well ive also been looking at clleges me and katie are thinking bout leaving to witch ever school accepts me and live in that city for  hqalf a year or start in january of  2011 all i know is thats when i  wanna go to school but i gotta wait for katie to finish before i can move on .

back to baby stuff lol her moms making a big shower and a shit load of people are going well boo and her are making it.  david wanted to go but i dont think alot of guys are going so courney has been telling  him that.  what eles um.......... im having a kid in less then 2 months !!!!
well im done with this lol for now.
ohh and me and katie have now been together for over a year without breaking up ... kinda surprising lmfao

yeah well nothing too new has been going on besides i fucking graduated high scool  yeahhhhhh. I actually got an 80 in the course not as good as i would have liked cince it was an eassy course but i did do it in 3 weeks.  Also katie has gotten alot bigger shes hasnt told me her actual wate but i know shes gianed alot. im pretty exited shes about 27 weeks now and she has another apointment but that is next week.  We are starting to get some stff for the baby and we are starting to do the babies room.  Its been pretty nice.  Also i have not much of a social life but i do work 40 hours aweek and i come home to my lovely girlfriend and that really doesnt bother me in the long run.  Speakin of me and katie we are doing better alot better well. we also have goten alitle better.
well every thing is great and i am enjoyen life like crazy and hope everyone eles is good later.

well life sucks and is good at the same time.  what i meen by this is nothing what you think i dont have any shame what happend one night. i know what goes on and what happens but whats done is done i dont care if people now hate me now i got more things going on but thank you to most of you guys for showing me what ive missed for so long so responsiblity worth alittle drama in life i wont miss the other shit the only one i wish i could still chill with now is well do even have to talk bout it he was purdy damn good at left for dead lmao but i pwn him at halo shitty not chillen with him anymore but i dunno. back to my topic  i work for a living i support myself my girlfriend who must give a damn to still be with me and i love her for waiting for me to grow a pair and be a better person. im going to have a kid in aout 5 months time and i cant wait i work at timmies and it sucks 40 hours a week of shit but i will work every damn shift anfd hate it but smile at the end of the day thinking one more day gone i get to see my child soon and fuck i just want it to happen now.   then you got the people sayin how is he gonna support a child working at timmies, well luckily yours truly got him self geared to income so i got a very very nice appartment for 300 bucks including heat and hydro and i move in on monday. the plus is im right by a daycare, right by a store, I wanted to watch sdome games this year so thats a plus that i live by the arena.  so when u look at it my life is not that tough. i will graduate school in sept or october i only need to one credit being ive gotten almost all my hours this summer.  the way i see it my life is put on hold by 2 to 3 years but eh at the end of the day i dont care.  il be somewhere with my wonderful child loving every moment of it and eh life will be tough probly tougher then most people my age but, thats life htough my drama will b  gone due to my life will be baby work katie.


ps. i dont find things insulting much anymore(unless u call me fat)  your entilted to your opinion and im sorry if you were crushed do to somthings but its life and it sucks but dont pitty me at all please i dont need it not to be rude i still have alot going for me and in 10 years i will have an amazing thing in my life. but the thing is what will you ave more at that point at 29 i think my life will be complete and i cant wait but pity someone eles this kid will be what makes my life. other people with have their jobs.  i admit job is important and asoon as katie finoishes school im going off to college but their will be nothing bad following me at all besides the junk tha happend awhile ago but yeah not pityu pity someone who needs it .

What once did exist, now is meaningless

well im sitting here wondering me and katie hit a huge bump in the road and sometimes it sees easier to let it all go away  i know i have to keep it going becuase well its the right thing to do.  i miss a certain thing in my life right now it seems like it would have gone further and would have survived better if i went with it but you never no.  i loved what i once now and i love what im gonna have in a few months witch is weird lmao but i do miss what i could have had or who knows maybe i dont miss it and  i think i do just because i got a glimps a couple weeks back at what i was missing. ( katie just left the room smelling the room cuz its gross witch isstarting to piss me off but eh gotta get used to it )  well i think i should got to bed soon and i hope that every one thinks they made all the right choices when it comes to their love life because i bet all of us have second guessed the crap out of that one choice probly alot in the last year actually lol.  well the truth is m life is gonna change huge in 6 months and i didnt think it was gonna be with the girl im with now always thought if somthing big was gonna happen like this it would be somthing eles ( not saying i want it o or wanted it to, or not saying that this is a big curse and i hate katie lmao i care bout her alot her and her crazy bitch hormons lmao. well i hope every one is happy but i should go crash cya later.

Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Rabbits are Roadkill on route 37 AFI

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lol yeahhhhhhh ok i get how live journal is a place to bitch once in awhile but know offence is it always about a girl upseting you or breaking your heart when it comes to guys like fuck do you guys got any bigger problems not tryint  to be offencive  but come on if its ment to be it will happen. okkk enough of that


um david hasa huge CACCCCCKKKKKKKK lol wow
i meen big RIGGHT DES 

lol ok  um PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE do it for the good of the world

this is more pointless i guess

k well this is supposed to be gamming buit this is just as fun lol um

im gonna fuck that piggg huuu huuuugghh!!! from david...


SOOOOOOOO yeah david wants to fuck that pig... i could say somthing really mean bout his ...... yeah

ok well a certain someone wants to me to call them and part of me thinks i wanna but at the same time i feel like im betraying and being a dick so what would u do... feel guilty or talk to that certain person who you never had a problem talking to also. what happens when i talk to her does the same thing happen before when i was tlaking to her yeah thing is should i risk everything i have for somthing that seems like a good idea who knows  and yeah hate the world i gotta work 4 or 5 days a week and pay for rent and other shi i dont want or need i think i deserve alittle fucking somthing going my way .....
well i gotta go david wants to talk to des peace...

Current Mood: chipper

Well im passing all my classes and thats a good thing.  im not gonna be in school next year . I wont graduate till the years over due to no having my hours and all that stuff but owell.  The reason im not going back is well its my reason and only the people i know i can trust know right now.  I gotta grow up i can think about what can i do to escape it i gotta face the thing strait on and im doing my best I wont run away becasuse im better then that i wont take the easy ways out il work and il work to get through it may be rouvh but il get through .  The thing is after copper cup weekend il admit i miss the old day well not old days just last year i miss it all but il never have it back even if i wanted too.  i cant go back and play rockband with my friends i cant have the days where i had to talk about stupid celeb gossibe gahhhh wasnt fun bu still good past thing..... i can have long nights anymore that sucked back then cuz i was tired lmao.  I gotta step up and grow up more then i wanna i have to sit around thinking what i can do to make it  easy.  it also come to i wish i had a friends i could talk to bout this shit and trust them but come on david not the most quiet guy in the world i certinly miss stuff but i gotta be there and be mature i hate this shit this is my rant about the worst thing in my life right now but i cant talk about this suck balllllls butttt it has to be like that for now .


also fuck my life lost in the copper cup finals in over time.  worst nightmare for a goalie...... lol one of those things you knows not your fault but still blame your self... fuck thats why i didnt wanna be in net lol. well later.

THers one reasons i cant sleep and im scared.....
i gottaa smarten up with school im so focused on moving on that i dont care how well i do till i move on.
my marks suck .. not as bad as some people and they have bigger dreams then me  but not good enough. im sucking it larg in cem but still fuck whats wrong with me. i gotta start paying rent when me and boo take over the house so i gotta work my ass off and start going to school.. kinda shitty im skpping tuesday to go to suds but after that no more i meen it i cant anymore. and its not just one of thos things that i say now i have to do it im smarter then this i meen not honour roll or nothing but 70s i can do.im thinking bout aCTUALLY STAYING A WHOLE EXTRA SEMESTER NOW. I WAS ONLY GONNA STAY AN EXTRA MONTH BUT NOW I GOTTA STAY AN EXTRA SEMESTER SMARTEN UP i hate this this is the only thing i got on my mind. the sad part is im only failing one class and i feel so much pressure i want 4 damn cedits so bad. fuck il do it man like im not gonna say its gonna be great credits but that cem was is a need i gotta get it so every day now i show up and i hand work in.   ohhh and on a possitive note me and katie have been together for 5 months on the 18th fucking rite on that now i gotta string a good semester together so i can have a good summer . well i gotta go crash laterrrrr.

sorry for really bad spelling and caps wrote and didnt stop
 oh and one more thing i am not writting again till midterm because i wanna see if i actually gave a shit and my marks went somewhere

Current Mood: worried

sooooooo. hello.  today was great so was last week.  still in a very happy relationship witch is a change thought my relationship would be miserable by now like the las t one ended up bein. but no.   im going to suds next week to spend my money from work yeah should be a fun day davids comming sso is courney and of course katie <3
i also got a hair cut it s really short no shag..... nothing to say also fdfdsfjdsfds