20dannyboy

39 weeks hddsjkfhdfjhdfkdsfds

2009-11-30T05:39:40Z

well im too pumped katies has to get that thing out of her because im done with the baby kicking stage i wanna hold it :)
im not to sure what i want i guess as long as its healthy.
im kinda pushing to a girl more tho just becuase it would be nice to have daddys litle girl and i can enjoy life till the teenage years.
but a boy that would be bad ass.
any body got any guesses lol every one thinks it will be a girl tho lol.

boo has already said that she will babysit for katies prom so this year we can get drunk and actually enjoy the thing. oh and getting back to actually enjoying danny katie time in a few months should be nice. but that will be rare still but ehhhh.

well i should go people should write on here more oftenlol

20dannyboy @ 2009-11-22T23:42:00

2009-11-23T04:42:42Z

mhmmmm.....
so i was really sick for a week with a nasty flue and i missed alot of work.
me and katie have had to adjust with the lesser hours but eh i guess that not so rough. i havnt really talked to anyone latly kinda wanna no bout their lives but no one seems to write on this site much anymore so lol.
um what eles kates due in 2 weeks very exited about that i get a baby girl or boy soon.
also working at timmies you see people alot its messed when you see people after a hard time and complet akwardness.
well you do miss people but youknow that every thing is over and done with and every one has now done somthing eles does anyone eles ever wonder whats going on ...
wow this is a pointless journal

well im happy with evey thing work sucks but it pays my bill me and katie are good. fight like most couples but we work it out and well we got alot of shit from her shower some cute shit.
well this was pointless gonna go on facebook now or game....

7 more Weeks

2009-10-19T20:59:43Z

well today
katie got her ultra sound finaly, the baby is good from what she saw witch is a load off... stupid fucking doctor waiting this long. cince the baby was so big tho we didnt get the best picture in the world but we can see the hands and the head. also her due date changed thank god... so now it is december the 7th so that puts katie up at 33 weeks yeahhhhhh. Also their is only one in side so thats good happy bout that i guess. also we found out the babies weight and so far it is just under 5 pounds so were hopen for a big one.... well im hoping for a big one katie i think is dreading it all but im happy its awesome i keep looking at the little picture its so cool. the baby room is starting to come along soon and the baby shower is just around the corner so every thing is going good. also work as been good i kinda got nastyt with the other baker so i should talk to my boss about that so i dont get in trouble... the bitch was pissing me off and always does shes not very liked at timmies. what eles um been gamming alot of fable 2 it keeps me sane lol..... well ive also been looking at clleges me and katie are thinking bout leaving to witch ever school accepts me and live in that city for hqalf a year or start in january of 2011 all i know is thats when i wanna go to school but i gotta wait for katie to finish before i can move on .

back to baby stuff lol her moms making a big shower and a shit load of people are going well boo and her are making it. david wanted to go but i dont think alot of guys are going so courney has been telling him that. what eles um.......... im having a kid in less then 2 months !!!!
well im done with this lol for now.
ohh and me and katie have now been together for over a year without breaking up ... kinda surprising lmfao

That's when she said I don't hate you boy

2009-09-28T04:05:50Z

yeah well nothing too new has been going on besides i fucking graduated high scool yeahhhhhh. I actually got an 80 in the course not as good as i would have liked cince it was an eassy course but i did do it in 3 weeks. Also katie has gotten alot bigger shes hasnt told me her actual wate but i know shes gianed alot. im pretty exited shes about 27 weeks now and she has another apointment but that is next week. We are starting to get some stff for the baby and we are starting to do the babies room. Its been pretty nice. Also i have not much of a social life but i do work 40 hours aweek and i come home to my lovely girlfriend and that really doesnt bother me in the long run. Speakin of me and katie we are doing better alot better well. we also have goten alitle better.
well every thing is great and i am enjoyen life like crazy and hope everyone eles is good later.

4 Months

2009-08-09T13:59:27Z

well life sucks and is good at the same time. what i meen by this is nothing what you think i dont have any shame what happend one night. i know what goes on and what happens but whats done is done i dont care if people now hate me now i got more things going on but thank you to most of you guys for showing me what ive missed for so long so responsiblity worth alittle drama in life i wont miss the other shit the only one i wish i could still chill with now is well do even have to talk bout it he was purdy damn good at left for dead lmao but i pwn him at halo shitty not chillen with him anymore but i dunno. back to my topic i work for a living i support myself my girlfriend who must give a damn to still be with me and i love her for waiting for me to grow a pair and be a better person. im going to have a kid in aout 5 months time and i cant wait i work at timmies and it sucks 40 hours a week of shit but i will work every damn shift anfd hate it but smile at the end of the day thinking one more day gone i get to see my child soon and fuck i just want it to happen now. then you got the people sayin how is he gonna support a child working at timmies, well luckily yours truly got him self geared to income so i got a very very nice appartment for 300 bucks including heat and hydro and i move in on monday. the plus is im right by a daycare, right by a store, I wanted to watch sdome games this year so thats a plus that i live by the arena. so when u look at it my life is not that tough. i will graduate school in sept or october i only need to one credit being ive gotten almost all my hours this summer. the way i see it my life is put on hold by 2 to 3 years but eh at the end of the day i dont care. il be somewhere with my wonderful child loving every moment of it and eh life will be tough probly tougher then most people my age but, thats life htough my drama will b gone due to my life will be baby work katie.

ps. i dont find things insulting much anymore(unless u call me fat) your entilted to your opinion and im sorry if you were crushed do to somthings but its life and it sucks but dont pitty me at all please i dont need it not to be rude i still have alot going for me and in 10 years i will have an amazing thing in my life. but the thing is what will you ave more at that point at 29 i think my life will be complete and i cant wait but pity someone eles this kid will be what makes my life. other people with have their jobs. i admit job is important and asoon as katie finoishes school im going off to college but their will be nothing bad following me at all besides the junk tha happend awhile ago but yeah not pityu pity someone who needs it .

What once did exist, now is meaningless

2009-06-16T04:19:51Z

What once did exist, now is meaningless

well im sitting here wondering me and katie hit a huge bump in the road and sometimes it sees easier to let it all go away i know i have to keep it going becuase well its the right thing to do. i miss a certain thing in my life right now it seems like it would have gone further and would have survived better if i went with it but you never no. i loved what i once now and i love what im gonna have in a few months witch is weird lmao but i do miss what i could have had or who knows maybe i dont miss it and i think i do just because i got a glimps a couple weeks back at what i was missing. ( katie just left the room smelling the room cuz its gross witch isstarting to piss me off but eh gotta get used to it ) well i think i should got to bed soon and i hope that every one thinks they made all the right choices when it comes to their love life because i bet all of us have second guessed the crap out of that one choice probly alot in the last year actually lol. well the truth is m life is gonna change huge in 6 months and i didnt think it was gonna be with the girl im with now always thought if somthing big was gonna happen like this it would be somthing eles ( not saying i want it o or wanted it to, or not saying that this is a big curse and i hate katie lmao i care bout her alot her and her crazy bitch hormons lmao. well i hope every one is happy but i should go crash cya later.

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2009-05-13T03:54:55Z

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdd Mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn RIVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER

lol yeahhhhhhh ok i get how live journal is a place to bitch once in awhile but know offence is it always about a girl upseting you or breaking your heart when it comes to guys like fuck do you guys got any bigger problems not tryint to be offencive but come on if its ment to be it will happen. okkk enough of that

um david hasa huge CACCCCCKKKKKKKK lol wow
i meen big RIGGHT DES

lol ok um PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE do it for the good of the world

this is more pointless i guess

k well this is supposed to be gamming buit this is just as fun lol um

im gonna fuck that piggg huuu huuuugghh!!! from david...

SOOOOOOOO yeah david wants to fuck that pig... i could say somthing really mean bout his ...... yeah

ok well a certain someone wants to me to call them and part of me thinks i wanna but at the same time i feel like im betraying and being a dick so what would u do... feel guilty or talk to that certain person who you never had a problem talking to also. what happens when i talk to her does the same thing happen before when i was tlaking to her yeah thing is should i risk everything i have for somthing that seems like a good idea who knows and yeah hate the world i gotta work 4 or 5 days a week and pay for rent and other shi i dont want or need i think i deserve alittle fucking somthing going my way .....
well i gotta go david wants to talk to des peace...

You Don't Always Know Where You Stand Till You know That You Won't Run Away

2009-05-10T03:06:01Z

Well im passing all my classes and thats a good thing. im not gonna be in school next year . I wont graduate till the years over due to no having my hours and all that stuff but owell. The reason im not going back is well its my reason and only the people i know i can trust know right now. I gotta grow up i can think about what can i do to escape it i gotta face the thing strait on and im doing my best I wont run away becasuse im better then that i wont take the easy ways out il work and il work to get through it may be rouvh but il get through . The thing is after copper cup weekend il admit i miss the old day well not old days just last year i miss it all but il never have it back even if i wanted too. i cant go back and play rockband with my friends i cant have the days where i had to talk about stupid celeb gossibe gahhhh wasnt fun bu still good past thing..... i can have long nights anymore that sucked back then cuz i was tired lmao. I gotta step up and grow up more then i wanna i have to sit around thinking what i can do to make it easy. it also come to i wish i had a friends i could talk to bout this shit and trust them but come on david not the most quiet guy in the world i certinly miss stuff but i gotta be there and be mature i hate this shit this is my rant about the worst thing in my life right now but i cant talk about this suck balllllls butttt it has to be like that for now .

also fuck my life lost in the copper cup finals in over time. worst nightmare for a goalie...... lol one of those things you knows not your fault but still blame your self... fuck thats why i didnt wanna be in net lol. well later.

FML Cant sleep

2009-03-09T05:37:50Z

THers one reasons i cant sleep and im scared.....
i gottaa smarten up with school im so focused on moving on that i dont care how well i do till i move on.
my marks suck .. not as bad as some people and they have bigger dreams then me but not good enough. im sucking it larg in cem but still fuck whats wrong with me. i gotta start paying rent when me and boo take over the house so i gotta work my ass off and start going to school.. kinda shitty im skpping tuesday to go to suds but after that no more i meen it i cant anymore. and its not just one of thos things that i say now i have to do it im smarter then this i meen not honour roll or nothing but 70s i can do.im thinking bout aCTUALLY STAYING A WHOLE EXTRA SEMESTER NOW. I WAS ONLY GONNA STAY AN EXTRA MONTH BUT NOW I GOTTA STAY AN EXTRA SEMESTER SMARTEN UP i hate this this is the only thing i got on my mind. the sad part is im only failing one class and i feel so much pressure i want 4 damn cedits so bad. fuck il do it man like im not gonna say its gonna be great credits but that cem was is a need i gotta get it so every day now i show up and i hand work in. ohhh and on a possitive note me and katie have been together for 5 months on the 18th fucking rite on that now i gotta string a good semester together so i can have a good summer . well i gotta go crash laterrrrr.

sorry for really bad spelling and caps wrote and didnt stop
oh and one more thing i am not writting again till midterm because i wanna see if i actually gave a shit and my marks went somewhere

20dannyboy @ 2009-03-01T22:22:00

2009-03-03T03:26:13Z

sooooooo. hello. today was great so was last week. still in a very happy relationship witch is a change thought my relationship would be miserable by now like the las t one ended up bein. but no. im going to suds next week to spend my money from work yeah should be a fun day davids comming sso is courney and of course katie <3
i also got a hair cut it s really short no shag..... nothing to say also fdfdsfjdsfds

Dirty Dirty Horde

2009-01-07T04:52:58Z

WEll im, annoyed so very very much lmao. people dont get things but owell cant expect them 2 school is doing much better right now im actually almost all caugh up in soc goood yes. my relationship is going great um all my friends are dating someone witch is nice i guess now if we could all agree on who they were dating seems to always happe.. ppl need to judge a relationship not saying i dont do it i did every one of my friends and i have judged who we are dating ... and its gayyyyy but hey some judgings are more reasonable i guess. but eh every thing will end up getting good soon people gotta give other people some time insteid of expecting instant adaption but owell even if every things gets well again its not like its gonna effect us in the long run... we all start to leave within 6 to 12 months from now and people lose touch it sad and all but its life you can say how u wanna keep in touch with all your friends but its not as easy your job will take u away from eachother wok one day a family... and now im babling bout nothing but everything will get better soon and then it wont matter anyways but atleast you can feel better for that short periode of time i hope thigns get better soon im one of the ones that are stuck here for 12 months lmao well i should rap it up sorry if my spelling is shitty i dont much care to check it over lol but yeah peace

20dannyboy @ 2008-12-26T12:08:00

2008-12-26T17:12:57Z

WELL I pissed her off... and you know what you cant be mad at me for somthing youv'e done your bestfriend not mine wnated to know and atleast i told them my timming is perfecrtly fine dont you thinksomeone would rather know whten nothing is happenin no... you persoanlly want to wait for the wrost thing to happen before you can expalin myself. im just sayin you wanted to be happy so be happy just theres things that are gonna hit you in the ass because of it there always is. I will not lie for you you can say that im an assholeo r w.e but this is because i wont lie for you soooo i dunno just wanted to make myself feel better and it worked sooo.... yeah! lol

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2008-11-14T05:40:13Z

WEll im in a great mood lol. stuff with me and katie are getting better witch is good.. she still doesnt wanna trust me but i di fuck up only 3 weeks ago or somthing so time.. thats all w need i guess im happy for amy and ritchie and them starting dating its nice to see 2 people start up again they should last awhile i think witch is awesome lol... i thought i be mad cuz amy started dating him on the same day we started dating but to tell you the truth ... life goes on lol i have a girlfriend now and a number uis a number and its not t he number me and her share so why should i soo im happy for you two i hope u guys stay together for awhile lol (:. on other things brianne is comming down next weekend and i think il c her once or hopfully shes dating jables witch its pretty sick happy for them 2... i look around and all my friends have someone and its a nice thing to see and im hoping all there relationships work.. hehe im in a good mood and im kinda wet raining outside lol

back to the katie stuff tho im happy to be with her she gav me a second chance and like she said sh would get better bout what happend and she has it makes u so happy when someone can still sit next to you cuddle next t oyou when you wronged them so much and hurt them but i like it makes me feel i dunno lol well this is kinda getting blah sooo im gonna go game then bed then maybe wake up and spend some cash yeah!!!!

" This isn't Just Goodbye This is I Can't Stand you"

2008-10-30T04:10:17Z

OKKKKKKK... Danny Fucked up by well doing exactly that lol. But the thing is i didnt keep it a secret at sure i did at first but once i got it out i knew i did the right thing witch isnt alot because i shouldnt have done it in the first place lol. I cheated on my girlfriend with my ex happy i am, Funny thing is i am, becaus i read livejournal on how much ive changed and how terrbile i am now and it makes me laugh im glad its over i just wish i had found that out someother way then cheating. my girlfriend has decided to give me another chance its just alittle weird but also it feels like we got closer even tho i messed up so ba i dont no it feels like it kinda helped.. it sounds weird and i know kinda stupid but i wont cheat again katie makes me smile and at first i didnt no if i was gonna stay in that relationship but the fact is she gave me a second chance even tho i fucked up and its more then i got last time i messed up in a relationship .. so you can say how much ive changed or if i become gross or how much of a dick i am but it takes to people two fuck up and your not any better then i am no how much u think it your just as bad it just makes me happy tho. i do have to say one thing and that is thank you we had a yearlong relationship and it had bumps and alot but we still tryed and my mistakes i can learn from and i can maybe come out withsomthing better im not a changed person im the same lol. just your point of veiw on me has changed im the same and i will be for along time people will look at you and agree or they will say how gross iam and it doesnt bother me at all there good friends to you im happy you have friends its good get better because you cant always rely on someone to get you through or to say what you wanna hear to make you feel better. well once again il write later have a goodnight and sorry if this is all over the place and hard to read i enjoyed typing it so lol goodnight.

And i can always find her at the bottom of a plastic cup

2008-10-18T17:56:40Z

Okkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. well i havnt written in awhile and im happy yeah! lol school kinda sucks im failing math terribly (17) yeah thats bad but besides that im happy. got a few problems well when u like someone els and they like you and you have someone eles liking you its hard lmao i feeel bad but im happy with the other person... that made no cence lol. umm i havnt hung out with my other friends alot latly and one person has been shoving that in my face.... and well its hard too. when u say how much youl hate me when the other persons around and how she cant be and stuff how am i supposed to go near my other friends lol ... i know my friends dont like the person im seeing and that sucks and all but im not gonna stop owell this i confusing me soooo .... i still have my job!!!...... um im still in school im still at home... life is good .. only thing is wish hung out with the other friends of mine once in awhile love hangin with rene and katie but comeon other friends are great lmao.. if wher not yelling at eachother .. lol but yeah well i should go get ready for work i suppose write again ....

bunwhole

2008-09-20T06:58:21Z

Fuckkkkk this fucj you fuck meee/// im jk i supose but bot do i aht e mself i just want bee a good friend.. well thats all im sorrrrrrrrrrrryyy

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2008-09-17T03:18:34Z

GOOD MOOD.. yeah lol so i had a good day hangin with friends again and going to see disaster movie with was sooooo gayyyyy.. lol but owell fun night .. one thing that sucked is the breaking up of brianne and darcy.. good thing is me and darcy can still be friends we talked and i got no problem with him his business is none of mine and i cant hate him just because he broke up with m,y friend and we talkeda bout this so we decided to drink this weekend lol so ddarcys in now also we are growing in numbers lol.... um other life ... brayden and rene are dating and im happy for brayden being he deserves to be happy hes a good guy. so i dont think nothing cna put me down yeahhhhhh!!!!! and i decided to try to act alittle more mature and smarten up in math lol wonder how long it will last ..... one friend will tell me not very long at all and im basically fucked for life but that friend well isnt a very good friend alot of the time so i cant let there words bring me dwon no more.. just fuck there opinion mine is what will get me therou8gh the day not theres so lets c how far i can drag myself .. well i should go to bed later

blah Random

2008-09-13T18:26:13Z

well then ... im bored so i thought i come back and type.... well plans for today WORK....... witch sounds like so much fun ... it will be all good when i get paid next week wait i work all weekend next weekend so i cant spend my money then anyways... well i think next weekend ken said he wants to bring me to blind to get drunk then drive me back to elliot the next day lol when im hung over for work witch sounds like a lot of fun ... no seiously i cant wait i need somthing to do insteid of sitting here on livejournal. .. what eles can i say besides well school is ok .. if i can go for an entire week lol.... well if i graduate im going to college buti think il end up stayen the extra year witch sucks but owell eh ... tonight i think brayden said i should game with him and rene witch sounds like a plan to me better then sitting here doing nothing but owell well i should go get ready for work write later ..

Shes a pretty girl, shes always falling down.

2008-09-13T14:04:18Z

grrr... why are you sooo... loike the way you are... the way you act shouls drive me insane or to hate you ..... but it doesnt i wanna hold you when i know your upset or when u put that stupid fake but beautiful smile on. god im so pathetic ... and you are also but once again that patheticness is overwelmed with beauty this sounds alittle odd and i cant spell yes i know this.. I still rember when we first started to i dunno get closer and you told me you wernt beautiful an i told you what i thought it was sadly we arnt nice to eachother aqny more but its not gone not at all that beautifulness will be with you. this is odd being just the other day you told me you didnt want me in yourllife at all.. i so sorry im an as to you ... as bad as this sounds it makes me feel better lol being i know there is nothing left no flam nothing at all so it take my mind off you. well this is the most and uderly odd lj for me i dont no why i wrote this but i hope you get better andi hope that fake smile leaves because you have beautiful smile.

Float on

2008-08-31T00:52:44Z

you know what im sick of you saying your done... fuck you...... damn i try and i try i stand up for you when my friends bash you im nice about your new bf ... and all you tell me is your done.. thos were the words you gave me when you broke my heart and thos words wont do it again i need you but if you dont need me then there is no reason for me to stick around. grr brianne i think is mad at me wait because i started standing up for you .. god damnit i wanna be your friend but your so fucking difficult but w.e you wont try you dont care enough... c when i said i love you i ment it when yuou said it was aword cuz you can tell even now when we try to make a friendship work you dont try.. so you no what you got mad at me on the phone because i was busy standing up for you so what ever go to your lbs or what ever you like im pissed and you know what fuck it ... ....... this is akward but i love you lmao.. maybe thats why we ant be friends eh lol

well later i gotta go have a fire

help me

2008-08-29T02:04:07Z

well it was a very good week to tell you the truth and at the same time a badone... i decided tho im not gonna wait for amy im not gonna hurt myself just thinking bout her im not full of myself or nothing just i c it as she missen out ... im ther for her or try to be when shes sad and i will be more then anyone but who knows .. i wasnt ehr to be with that kid tho just because she smiles in away i havnt seen in so long and it makes me smile not matter how im feeling... just i know im slowly getting over her each day ... and i cant wait for the day its all gone because i dont deserve this and i want her to be happy and fuck i wanna be happy...... well about blindriver..... dont judge me now lmfao... being you got drunk rite next to me thought that was very funny... very fun tho .. good night..... im happy i think after one shit month im so happy because i miss her and i think i love her still but.......... i know i can give that to someone eles and they be more greatful kinda thing...... just plz amy get happy if this kid doesnt do it ther will besomthing that does and you may not think that but it will i want you to smile i want you to be happy .. but back to me being this is my lj im going to suds tommorow should be fun and welll im thinking im gonna leave because my friends are gamming in my room and someone needs me to talk to them even tho they wont admit it so peace ... later

all the small things

2008-08-24T07:00:49Z

welll this is my sec journal tonite grrrrrrrrrr..... well im here not bieng able to sleep soooo i blame you... you talk and fall for some boy who says he goves addamn and likes you but.. do u completly know i sitt infront of you i show up at your house when u need me im ther but do you care fuck it it doesnt meen anything.... this little basturd wants to throw a punch on me go ahead i guess... i hate you yet i love you and it kills me inside and you know what fuck it you dont give a damn you never loved me and you threw that word around o me you tell me you miss me well look i guess its obvious i miss you and im sorry if i piss you off im sorry i have bad tempor and you knowwhat i do anything for you i may not have been the best but i would have gone to hell for you and still would and u know what as far as o would go you know how far you would 45 mins to this kids house o wait that isnt for me you call me needing me and i there but.. your there for me.. i cant say your not because the facts are u calling me helps me..yes you insult me but when u calll me upset do i insult you.. fuck it i love you and i dont wanna because its a one way street and i would stop every thing for you i would stop drinking smoking can u not get hurt for me can u not be stupid bout what your doing for me no its your life but fuck your gonna get hurt fuck it there talking bout college i work tommorow you go to blind on monday hm... when you c thiscall me but i hihgly doubt you will be cuz im depreessed and i need you so bad like a stoner needs drugs i need you like a child and a blanket this is my phone call at 4 in the morning because im scared..... I love you.......good night

Danny

Through The Fire and The Flames

2008-08-24T03:51:02Z

WEll i had a sick ass night well come on firworks riding the roof of A.B. car what a night it was. but i get back to des and whati think about that stupid effin girl lmao i know your not stupid well you are kinda with all your well boy stuff your gonna mess your head up .... so i hate you so much i hate the fact you make me care and i hate the fact that my heart feels warm when your name comes up i wanna be with you i do i would love to throw around how much i love you but does it matter no none of it does all you care bout is your kid boy whatever he is i dont hate you but god i wish i did i actually thought this song was a good title for entry and i think it is its only cuz everyone is playen it tho... i miss you i do i love when you hug me because u wanna call me your bestestfriend or whatever it is and im glad that i can be t hat for you but ... idunno.. i hope you can be happy for you and if this blows up in your face il be ther for that hug that you need cuz il be that hug il be that voice thats there for you even though you hurt me but il be ther for you no matter how much y ouve hurt me but so god damn il be ther for you no matter what happens well this is going on way to long i cant keep missing you it will be the death off me so peace .... LATER

Make You Smile

2008-08-22T01:02:11Z

I gotta give it up its over its done and grrr im so upset .. and grr i was hit someone just because i dont no what eles i can do i try to be the nice friend even tho im still an ass i sit there trying to talk and say how much i hope he makes her happy and they date just so she can be happy but insteid im sitting here trying to make someone els happy when im just broken i sit around trying to pretend im ok with it but im not i already told the girl i have feelings for i wont drink or get high just so i can be her friend so thos to make me feel better are out of the questions i sit here alone ... and upset and missing the shit out of her while shes in a bed next to this guy al happy i gotta get over this soon because i can just hope cuz its never gonna happen i gotta move on but i dont no how i wanna make my self feel good but how being the only 2 things that ahve kept me sane i cant do because im trying to be her friend ... owell im just being stupid im 18 shes 17 well in 2 weeks and hes 14 life will go on just for the time being im heartbroken im not sure what to do i miss her and grr like last night after she fianlly hung up on me after probly the best conversation i had inthe past couple weeks with anyone i sat on my little couch with the phone in my hand hoping for another 2 minute phone call(Des phone kept on giving out )
well this is been enought bitching for now il write again soon

Danny

L.G. FUAD

2008-08-21T03:51:10Z

Well lets see i now have decided to stop drinking im an ass to the people that i care about even though one of them doesnt think i can do it i know i can maybe il still drink on occasion like somones bday but no more besides that ... i was a dick to rene .. shes been the nicest person to me and i treated her like garbage. also i was a dick to amy also did she deserve it probly not .. i jsut didnt no what to do i wanna be close to amy still in a friend way but i cant go ditching her becausei fucked up huge with rene the night before so i wanna be her friend i wanna be ther for her if somthing bad happens even tho she wouldnt want me to be im obviously going to be and brianne she was so happy with me today it made me smile i came in from soccer she jumped me with a bug hug... "i asked u just to do alittle more to show ur growen up alittle and u went looking for places you fixed stuff and you cleaned... you cleand lol i guess its not big but the fact that shes was just happy with my effort made me happy im greatful about that and im happy to have her around but i should go to bed cuz shes trying to sleep and im typing away really annoyingly so Goodnight and heres to trying to be better

Danny